Leap and the net will appear
Right, [Let’s out a heavy sigh]. So, I am a published author now. And you can search for my book in Amazon under Anu Morris or The Lifepod. Further details can be found on the details page.
Before we go any further I want to share a few incidents with you
- When I was about to press the final SUBMIT, I told my husband: “Maybe I should publish my book and not tell anybody about it.”
- I sent an email to a few of my friends/colleagues at work and one of them replied instantly stating that he has pre-ordered the book. My first thought was “Oh, no. Now he will find out how bad an author I am.”
And when I express(ed) this fear in public, I am surprised that people brush it off as a minor issue. And I don’t blame them. I would describe myself as confident but at the same time I cannot ignore how I feel when I think about my book. It’s this inner tug of war where you do want people to read your book and not read it at the same time.
It is hard to explain the anxiety and nervousness that an artist experiences when displaying their goods for sale. The artist takes something very personal – a part of them and puts it out there for judgement/ridicule/praise.And I keep telling myself it’s all a part of the creative journey but it doesn’t help the butterflies in my stomach.
For those of you who have read Artist Way will understand the Artist Dilemma that it talks about and helps you overcome it too.
In some ways this reminds me of my first ever dance class – I was nervous and convinced that my students will find out that I have two left feet. Three years since then and my class is a source of joy for all.
A part of me is definitely excited that I am a published author. My friends and family can search for me in amazon and I am there.
So here’s to taking another big leap of faith and exercising my creative muscle and courage. All the best to ME and to all the creative spirits in each and everyone of us.